I hunger for God; to worship Him as I once have. Tomorrow begins Shift, State Road's new senior high ministry. More has come to an end, something new is beginning, and I am in much the same place as I was when More left off. I feel that there is an elephant in the living room of my relationship with Christ and I refuse to aknowledge it. I want to be close to God, while holding onto the idols I've made. Lately, this struggle has brought me on a daily roller coaster ride, up and down in less than an hour, shifting between wanting to cry and wanting to laugh. Everything, it seems, is black and white.